Pleasant Surprises

Current Weight
Your weight is 257.4 lb as of 02/09/2006.

Weight Goal
Your goal is to weigh 246.4 lb by 05/01/2006

Goal Progress
You are currently 11 lb above the target weight.

The deadline for your goal is 81 days (11 weeks, 4 days) away.

To meet your goal you need to lose about 0.951 lb per week.

Of course, that's only my first goal. My 10%. My birthday is May, and I have to renew my Driver's License this year. If I meet that goal, I'll get to change the weight on my license without having to lie about it. (I think it says 250 now. I'll write 230, so I'll still be lying, but, ya know...did you know it's considered invalid if you're 10 pounds higher or lower than what it says? Crazy stuff.)

I went to the meeting yesterday absolutely positive that I had gained. I was going out for a friend's birthday last night, so I resolved not to look at the card, as not to ruin my evening. The woman behind the computer kept telling me, "Oh, you did great this week!" and "Keep up the good work!" and curiosity got the better of me, and I peeked at my card on the way out the door.
It always takes me a minute to figure out exactly what it says on the printed sticker they put in there each week.

2/8/06 4:43 pm
Today: 257.4
+/-: -4.2
Total: -16

16 pounds so far. If I add it up, that makes about 3.2 pounds a week that I've lost, which really isn't too bad. I'm hoping that this is the motivation I need to really get going and stay on track and start exercising my ass off.

Right after I finish this glass of wine, of course.

I Should Have Peed

I gained .6 pounds.
Grrrr.
I should have peed before I weighed.
I should have left my water bottle at work.
I should have left that bag of pretzels sealed.

Damn.

I know it's not much. .6 Pounds. Hmph.

I had the epiphany yesterday, that I really, really want this to work for me.
When I eat things I'm not "supposed" to, or eat more than I should have, I'm only cheating myself. I try to convince myself that I deserve it, or that it won't hurt anything...But it will. It hurts me.

I'm sick of being this big. I need this to work for me.